First trip alone...

Trip was a success. I enjoyed my time with my Father and meeting family. I didn’t sleep much because I was so excited to be there, but I did enjoy every second I was there. 

First Trip Alone...

 Here soon I’ll be taking my first trip alone and traveling to the other side of the states. I am super nervous, but also super excited. I am nervous because I will be traveling without my Master, but also I feel super excited because I will be traveling to visit my Father and meet more family

Covid-19

So there has been a virus that has shut down many businesses over the course of about six or seven months so far. With that being said my Boyfriend, Hubby and I have been lucky and have been working the whole time. Funny story, because it’s actually how I met my boyfriend. So the virus ended up causing the casino to close for about 12 weeks. Well during those 12 weeks I was pumping gas. Come to think of it...I don’t think he let me pump his gas. In fact I don’t think he has let anyone pump his gas. Anywho he came to get gas one day and that’s how we met. Covid is still going on and we are all still working and well.

Life gets busy in relationships

 Ever promise someone you’ll message them or call them and then the day just passes by? It happens. Don’t even bothering beating yourself over it. My boyfriend and I had to go a couple weeks without seeing each other after he got off work. It wasn’t he or I couldn’t make the time. It was there was just so much going on, on both our ends that just made it to where things didn’t workout. So when we get to see each other long enough to get coffee we enjoy it. 

My Master has been more possessive lately and omg I love it. He has me wearing all my cuffs at work. My collar, my wrist cuffs and ankle cuffs! Normally he only has me wear my ankle cuffs when he and I are home together and not working. I’ll admit I love it. 

Making time to spend with one another is important. Even if you send texts to check in, see how ones day is going or to make plans, you are making time for each other. I understand not everyone likes spending time together, but when y’all first started seeing one another y’all enjoyed it. So use this time to find those sparks again. 

New Boyfriend

So my Master used to give me a hard time about being around this guy. The guy and I used to spend 8 hrs together, several days a week. So when I would see my Husband he would ask, “how’s your boyfriend?” Well he kept doing it so the guy and I ran with it. Now occasionally we might get to spend an hour together. 3 hours a week total if all is well and time allows it. Sometimes it’s a hi and bye. It’s not always easy, but it’ll work itself out. With My Master and Boyfriend starting/finishing school it makes time with either of them less and less. So I have buried myself in work and house chores. A clean house makes a happy Master☺️.

It’s been a while...

So it has been a little while since I last posted a blog. A lot has happened...

So when I first started this blog it was about weight loss. Well I am now down 150lbs before my weight loss surgery. Covid-19 kinda Pit that’s on hold for the time so I’m still trying to lose more and keep toning. 

Also, I got a job being a cocktail server. Absolutely love my job!

As for relationship’s...

    I am married to my Master as you all know and I have a FWB. Both take great care of my needs and in different ways. Time with each of them is spent differently. I get maybe 3 hours a week with my boyfriend if we are lucky. Sometimes meeting up doesn’t work, but that’s because he has his own family and responsibilities. As I too have my family to tend to when I’m needed

My Friend with Benifits...

      So as I may have mentioned before, my Master and I have opened our marriage.  I had met a few guys to see if they would be a good fit for me, but most set my anxiety into full gear; and lets face it, anything that causes anxiety is never any good. Well....I have picked the one I want and who wants to please me in the ways I need satisfied. My Master does satisfy me. Let’s get that straight right now, but my second Dominate leaves what I call “beauty marks”.

      He has shown me that he RESPECTS me. Let’s talk about a big way Dominates show RESPECT...Say you have both agreed to a scene or meet up. However you want to look at it. I look at it as hanging out lol. So one day my friend with benefits came over and I was still new to the open marriage idea. I felt like it was a trap every time. Even with PERMISSION from my Master, I still felt like it was wrong. There are still days where I feel it is wrong. Well one day I ended up using my safe word because my anxiety was all boom I’m back b***h!!! Ugh it was hell for me in my head that day and I’m not sure why it happened, but all the sudden I said the safeword and he stopped. He stopped everything and tried to make sure I was okay. A Dominate who cares is a true Dom. Of course with the mind set I was in I pushed him out and away for a bit. He still messaged me and we talked. I kept him at a distance for about three weeks before he figured out what was going on in my mind. I will admit I do love that we can talk, It is good to be able to talk to your dominate’s. 

      Yes, I am now putting the “friend with benefits/playmate” as a Dominate (Dominant #2). I don’t do this lightly either and he and I have made it clear that our families will ALWAYS come first. Honestly, I expect nothing less, but will very much enjoy the time I do get with him. I want to talk about today because today we talked about how I was offered a chance to get spanked while bent over a bench. You are probably asking and thinking...Why in the world would you want to be spanked?!?!? Two words...stress reliever. Lol. No joke though. BDSM is NOT about pain though! Let’s make that perfectly clear. Anyways...we chatted and he asked me “Are you going to go?” First though “that’s a freaking trick question!!!” Last time I played with someone without telling him, he told me he was hurt. I didn’t tell him though. That was my biggest oops. Won’t ever make that oops again. I was honest with him though about this and did tell him that the bench had excited me, but then I had admitted to having a small “string” attachment. I thought for sure he was going to cut me or put more time between our visit. Instead he told me we could build a bench; and that made me happy. Not only would I still get the experience and the spankings, but I would get to have the experience with someone I know and TRUST. Getting me to TRUST is already hard. We also agreed if drama happened on either side we would put a stop to us as well. 

      When another man is willing to earn your trust, have patience with you, learn your likes and dislikes, respects boundaries and limits, one who gives you space when you need it, one who is willing to give you what you need is on worth giving a shot to. This one is also willing to check in on me and the kids while my Master is out of state; for a visual that all is okay. Normally that wouldn’t be allowed, but my Master TRUSTS Dominant #2. 

      Thank you Master and Dominate #2 for being patient with me. You are both great men